Well .. right now im not myself .. like i wasn’t myself ever since yesterday .. like right now i just wanna be alone & curl up in the ball & cry .. & cry & cry until theres no more tears in me .. like i just wanna runaway & be somewhere far where no one won’t ever find me .. My heart is hurtingg .. feels like someone is stabbing it .. & all day today i’ve been thinking SO MUCH .. i couldn’t even focus in class .. didn’t talk to no one .. act different to everyone .. like everyone ask me the same question ” What’s Wrong With You ? Your Not Acting Like Yourself Lately ? Or Why Are You So Quiet ? ” Like i didnt wanna answer .. because before im good at hiding my feelings like people would see im happy & all from the outside but really they never knew bout the inside  of me .. like I Love My Girl Soo Muchh .. Like Its Not Even Funny .. i havent felt like this in a long time .. i been hurt soo much in the pastt & right now .. things are fucking me up .. like what i been hearing shit not even funny .. like I Really Do Care For You & Love Herr & Adore Her & Alwayss 100% Honest & Truthful & Committed .. I just .. i just dont wanna lose her .. she means the world to me .. i just gotta let it out .. i cant keep this inside me the whole timee .. its killing me day by day .. i just dont wanna lose her & let this relationship end … i want this relationship to lastt .. im trying my hardest .. trying my bestt to work things out & i know i may not be the perfect guy but everyone has their flaws but me im serious in a relationship .. if i lose her .. idk what to do to myself .. i would never know who am i again .. my world will turn upside down without her ..